Once again it has been 4 months since I last posted and
since then I have meant to update my blog dozens of times. Half the time I have
even planned out what I could write but something else always grabbed my
attention before I got around to actually doing it. The majority of those
things were Doctor Who, which I have fallen head over heels in love with. I
literally can not get enough of it and I put my life on hold until I caught up
with 7 seasons. I am all caught up though and I am putting my life back into
motion, including this blog. Since my last blog post I have had so many life
changes and the question of what comes next did a complete 180.
I AM EMPLOYED!!!! A family friend is a principal at an
elementary school and had an instructional assistant position open to work with
at risk kids. I very reluctantly agreed to interview for the position because
even though the job didn’t sound exciting I needed the money and an excuse to
wake up every morning. I got the job and it has changed my life. I love what I
am doing. I spend all day surrounded by 4th graders and even though
they can get on my nerves they also give me so many reasons to smile. Watching
them finally understand what we are teaching is an indescribable feeling, and I
am so happy that I get to experience it. I also work at the most amazing school,
everyone is so kind and make me feel so welcome, like I am part of a group. They
also believe in me, even when I don’t believe in myself. They have complete
faith that I can do/teach whatever they need me to, and even when I am freaking
out internally they give me the push to follow through on all of my tasks. They
make waking up easier every morning. Since I love my job so much it has lead me
to my next piece of news.
I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!! I honestly thought
this day would never come but I did my best to keep believing. I would remind
myself that God has a plan for me and I have simply not reached the point in my
life where I get to know what it is. I was patient though and now I know. I was
meant to be a teacher. My job has opened up my eyes to how much I love and
enjoy working with elementary school aged kids. People always told me that I
would make a fantastic teacher but I never believed them. I had no interest in
being a teacher, so why would I? I always knew I loved kids because of
babysitting but the idea of having a child’s education in my hands made me
nervous and terrified me. I am still nervous about this and a little terrified
but my job has shown me that I can do it. All of the teachers at school tell me
on a regular basis that I am doing a great job and tell me that I am a natural teacher.
Their faith in me is giving me the confidence I need to go and get my teaching
certificate. Now that I have decided to be a teacher no other job possibility even
comes close to making me as happy. I can imagine my life as a teacher and I am
just filled with excitement and happiness. A huge weight has been lifted off my
shoulders. I was meant to be a teacher.
It amazes me how something as small as getting a job can
change your entire life. I am no longer worrying about what comes next, instead
I am looking forward to it.
**Also, lets all acknowledge the fact that my blog is 1 years
old!!! In 1 year I had 23 posts, which may not seem like a lot but for me it is
a huge deal…look at me go. :)
